Life comes at you fast

Life's path is changing for me, but what fork do I take in the road?

Ever since my son was diagnosed with Autism, I had to change a lot of what my daily routine and habits were. Not only that, I had to stop all of the hobbies I used to have in order to dedicate my full attention to my son. At first I thought I could balance that side of my life with the new responsibilities of parenthood. It didn't take long for me to understand just how silly I was thinking I had a handle on all this balance.

It was hard at first to give up on the things I liked doing to replace them with making sure I was always free for my son's needs. There was always a nagging feeling in the back of my subconscious that I could do both if I just focused hard enough. Oh, how naive I was in the beginning.

It's been a couple of years now since those naive thoughts of balance and it's still hard to not have those hobbies anymore but in a sense, easier for me to understand why I need to not be selfish and there will be a time I can etch out minutes on the clock to rediscover former hobbies.

Not sure what I'm really trying to say here. Maybe this is a group sharing session letting others with similar situations know that it's okay to struggle with this at first. Making life changes suddenly is a lot for anyone in any situation. It could also be a reminder to myself that I'm doing the best that I can and to worry about the here and now before it becomes a past I regret.